Sorry, Gnu. I'm not really sure what to say to make you feel better, this is a thing that sorts itself out with good honest self reflection and time. I'm sure you'll give it the proper consideration and you'll be over it when the time is right (you can't force it unfortunately, it only makes it worse from my experience). I'm one of those folks that thinks this stuff happens for a reason, so if that helps you out then keep that in mind. If you need to vent feel free to do so on here or hit me up via PM.